As I'm sitting here in front of my computer trying to gather my thoughts, I'm drawing a blank. The fact that I clocked just over an hour of sleep time yesterday is not doing me any favors. My brain has been working overtime recently due to tonnes of project and assignment deadlines to meet and with exams hovering around the corner, I can't help but feel edgy. Its true that as a student, this is part and parcel of live as it is now and I hear no end to the envious qualms from the working population of friends how they wish they could be in my shoes right now. I guess to a certain degree they are right but that brings me to assess my standing against theirs. I'm far from achieving the goals that money can get but I guess life is a little better now. All this "jibberish" while I'm still gathering my thoughts. Let me try again to organize them...its moments like this that got triggered by something. I'm probably too engrossed in my projects and assignments that I forget to "think" about stuff until it triggers off then a wave of memories, some random and some hard to forget, comes and engulfs me, like my brain sinking in its own cerebral fluids. You know how suppressed memories that suddenly just hits you hard, like a breakwater against the storm, weathering it down until your resolve is nothing more than a loose pebbled beach. Fragments of your soul frothing in the backwash, dislodging parts of it to be scattered elsewhere or gets dragged out to sink at the very bottom of the ocean. The constant reminder...destructive. What happens when there's nothing left of you? Numbness, constantly at one with it, no restriction or barrier...thats when everything becomes crystal clear! No more fresh sharp pains...just aches. Very soon time will destroy all and we will be lost entirely. I'm reaching there...very soon it I will just be a lost entity, reborn and recycled.

Phew...where did all that come from? Should consider writing novels as I find it easier to pour things out in the form of words rather than speech. On a lighter note, I'm having my annual chronic dry cough! Yay! This sucks big time and now isn't the best time for a recovery. Hope I'll just take a turn for the better!

Fingers and toes crossed for the Hong Kong trip confirmation. Damn hard work planning the itinerary. Take care all of you!