Updates updates...haha well nothing much to update at the moment, such is life at present. Waking up at 7am every Monday to Friday just to put my alarm clock to snooze mode twice and finally dragging myself out of bed at 7.18am (9 min intervals between snooze alert). Sometimes I wonder what the extra 18 min would do for me except giving me the excuse to brisk walk to the bus stop every morning to catch the 7.50am bus. Its a wonder that I can have short dreams within the span of 9 min and then snooze again and continuing part 2 in the remaining 9 min. I think my mind is over active even when i'm sleeping. I've had re-occuring dreams before and dreams that I'd never forget, I wonder if there is some form of interpretation of my dreams. Well work has been fine except for the fact that my weekends are a big uncertainty with alot of relocation projects going on, we "coolies" are usually asked to assist the Engineers but the huge difference is we don't get paid OT while the Engineers do. So far I have to say the staff at my company has been rather understanding to our plight and tries not to keep us beyond the time required. Oh yes we do get time off instead. I have earned 2 days off so far, wondering when I should clear it. Just heard some good news at work today. I might be re-deployed for 2 months at Merrill Lynch, 1 of the top 5 banks in Singapore. I really believe there is a silver lining for every dark cloud...those who are familiar with my IA application knows that my wish was to get an internship at Barclays but I screwed up the online test and had to settle for my current company, my 2nd choice. Now that i'm giving the opportunity to work in the the financial sector again, I hope nothing goes wrong.

Still finding the silver lining behind the dark cloud surrounding my love life. Heard Merrill Lynch has alot of girls working there...a far cry at what my current work place provides haha. Yeah so anyway we are just buds again...I guess the timing as usual was off, coupled with other factors that only the cosmic powers knows, it was decided that it would not have worked out anyway. No relationship can work if effort is only put in by 1 person but at least I can put this huge chapter behind me and write a new one. I've learnt alot from this...probably alittle too late but i'm glad I had gone through it nonetheless. Lets hope the next time would be a smoother journey.

So far so good...hope they dun throw a curve ball at me tmr or friday and strike out my weekend...*prays*

I have been very tired ever since work started...I don't think its just my attachment but together with everything else. It only week 2 and i'm counting down the remaining 20 weeks and to top it off I have been very "fortunate" to work on Saturdays as well...fyi I don't get paid OT, I only get time off. Sleep hasn't come very easily for me the past few nights...tossing and turning until about 2-3am before dosing off only to wake up like 1 or 2 hrs later. I think its draining my energy even faster at work if this carries on...its like not charging the batteries properly. Thats why gotta make use of the weekends to the fullest, catching up with friends or even catching up on sleep. Just pray no more back to back Saturdays. Looking forward to after work this Sat...short weekend but will grab it by the balls. Thanks to Lionel for the wonderful belated bday dinner on Tues! Breaks the normality of the otherwise monotonous week at work. Enjoyed myself!!

I have always pondered on the saying "The truth hurts!"...I have my own take on that. More often the truth is always a realisation to some people and that shakes the very foundation on which they have confined themselves within their own bubble of comfort. I think the truth is liberating, because it opens ones eyes to a whole new dimension, instead of looking at things from your own comfortable point of view. I would not say it is a bad thing to have ones own view but to be able to see it through the eyes of others may make one a more understanding person. Sometimes the truth is revealed in strange ways but very often its through what other people tells you. You can make a personal choice there and then to decide if it is the truth. Even a lie if believed can develope into a more analytical view of the situation.

I've heard alot of things recently...some of which I feel I can relate too and others just makes it harder to swollow. Nonetheless I have heard enough and I thank those sources. How I wish I could have heard it straight but I guess I had to hear it from someone else...well like I said the truth can come from anyone...a liberating feeling. Gotta get used to changes but armed with the truth, suddenly everything seems contrasting...no more shades of grey...no more regrets...

ps..I get the hint, will act accordingly to avoid problems...

Its so damn hard sometimes....sigh! Period!

Hi there earthlings! Spent the weekend with the gang at Genting Highlands departed last Friday at 10pm and arrived back home yesterday at 8pm. Spent 12hrs on the coach both to and fro from Genting but it was a great trip although it was rushed for me as I had to report for my attachment today. More about my company later but 1st up the Genting trip. Went with scb, dajie, zen, milo & freeuns, we stayed at Hotel First World pairing up into 3 rooms. I bunked in with milo while dajie and zen in 1 room and scb together with freeuns. Arrived at the mountain resort at 5am...I did not sleep a wink on the bus so I was a tad tired when we arrived but could not check in to our rooms until much later that afternoon at 3pm. Hung out at the casinos and tried my hand at roulette and jackpot. Lets just say I came back without a single RM...lterally! The food in Genting is very much different from the franchise in Singapore. Safe to say it pretty much sucks compared to our Singapore outlets. The only plus point is KFC...regardless what they said abt the coleslaw, I think everything tasted great. Cost of food and entertainment there is hardly cheaper because it is a tourist attraction.

Checked-in a little after 1pm only to find that our rooms have not been made (=_="). Dumped our bags in the rooms and placed the "House Keeping" tag on the door knob before heading for Baskin Robbins!! You can't find this franchise in Singapore only in Malaysia, just like Dunkin Donuts which apparently Genting doesn't have and poor scb got disappointed. I would say the trip knocked the wind out of freeuns and scb pretty bad. They slept on the way but ended up feeling more tired when we arrived and scb actually felt feverish for most part of the day. Played more jackpot before deciding to check if our rooms have been made already...yes yes and no. Both dajie's and scb's room was made except mine. F*&k them especially after milo called them many times. Worse of all no towels were brought up to our room even after informing the house keeper in person (thx to dajie)...horrible if you ask me. Lucky managed to "coupe" towel from scb since she brought her own.

After dinner at the foodcourt (ikan bilis ban mian), played some arcade games and was amazed at freeuns ability to recall his DDR skills of over 8 years ago! Decided the night was still young and being in a competitive mood we played team bowling. We paired up according to our room arrangements and the losing pair had to perform a forfiet! Luckily for milo and me we came in 2nd haha and the losing pair "SCB + FREEUNS" Played abit more jackpot before calling it a night.

Met the rest at 9am for breakfast before having a game of snooker before rushing back to our rooms to prepare to check-out. Had KFC (yay!) for lunch (3 piece Original Meal) before boarding the 2pm coach back to Singapore. 6hrs later and we were back at Golden Mile...that concluded the trip, a fun but yet rushed trip.

Yes now the part about my 1st day of Attachment. I'm glad that we're allowed to dress down for the rest of our time there. The department is full of attachment students which makes it easier to settle down. Not much comment regarding the management but observing how the lao jiao students interact with them I would say they are a pretty easy going bunch. My job scope on a daily basis would be to setup and configure Desktop, Notebooks and Server hardware to meet the client's individual needs. Ultimately i'll be slowly advancing to specialise in server and "blades" technology in the days to come. A rather informal working environment.

Lastly...I made steps that could change the way i'm living my life right now. I finally had the chance to talk to a special someone. From living a life for myself at the moment it could very well change to encompass living a life that involves someone else. It really looks challenging to work things out but nonetheless I made a promise not to back down again until the end. Its the 1st time i've ever opened myself to such an extent to another person and honestly speaking I feel vulnerable...i'll be putting everything into this and i'm taking the risk i'll fail but its something I have to do if not for us at least for myself. Assessing the situation, i'm at a huge disadvantage to begin with...totally not the ideal way to begin my very 1st journey but like I said...Chances don't come by, they must be created and utilised when it presents itself but I still can't help feeling that i'm already losing before I have a chance to do something about it! How much longer can I look on the bright-side of things? I definately hope its not going to be another decade...