It seemed so surreal to step into the world of nightclubs and pubs but I guess it was an experience I'll never forget. Anyway its been exactly 20 days since my last post and I have been accused of slacking. How true! Been staying home playing RO almost everyday. Needless to say when the datacenter hosting the game server went down for almost 15hrs, I was a frantic mess. Got to adjust myself to attachment mode. Starting on the 9th of July till the 8th of Dec, 830am to 545pm @ $600/mth. I know nothing fantastic but I guess I can only hang on the the hope of enjoying my attachment.

As usual I was playing RO the whole of yesterday when I recieved a call from my former boss. "Former" because i'm no longer incharge of the project, so technically i'm jobless. So i recieved a call from him asking if I was free to go out for "a night a wild fun". I was skeptical about it and I quizzed him further. Apparently the agenda was to repay me for my time spent fixing up him computer as well as leaving me high and dry regarding the sudden lost of my job. He promised me a night where all I had to do was enjoy myself and not worry about the finances. Being such a "pussy" when it comes to such vices I declined the offer but he was persistent and persuasive!!! Sad to say I failed miserably in negotiating although I took a class on that and scored a 'B grade'. Coupled with the fact that I haven't been out of the house lately and my emotional well-being recovering from a battering, I decided to join them. Who knows, it could very well start something new in me but I told myself that I was going to practice self-control within the limits of having fun but I knew the rest has something in store for me.

Reached Tanjong Pagar at around 1045pm and made my way to find them, apparently such places are more happening earlier on in the night, a total contrast to the dance clubs littering Mohd Sultan and The Cannery. Walked past Why Not...infamous gay crib but I heard its very quite nowadays. Headed down further and met them outside Fondre. Was introduced to Daniel, he was the "tour guide" he knew people and people knew him...it was like a scene from inthevip. Hehe I think some of you guys might know what i'm talking about. We started off bar hopping, taking a peak before moving on. I had no idea what they were doing and had to endure much walking up and down that stretch. He lead us into some back alley where we were to enter via the backdoor but something seemed amiss. I overheard him saying something about the lights being turned on etc...as we headed back out to the main road we realised that a raid by Foreign Affairs was taking place. Girls on social visit passes were rounded up and taken away in police vans. Seems the night ended prematurely for me, a complete waste of time traveling all the way down to see the bars closing shop early...NOT!!

The guys felt bad about it considering this little escapade was for my sake, my little coming out into the world experience if you will call it. Daniel drove us from Tanjong Pagar to Paramount Shopping Centre. Yes! I was at Katong at 1130pm! Thats where the fun really began. 1st stop "J Up" entered the place and immediately 2 rather stunning hostesses came over and began introducing themselves but it ended rather quickly as Dan the Man felt there were better places inside Paramount. We promised the girls from "J Up" we would return...like real! 2nd place "Home Ground". I was given a brief explaination how this works. We would go in and order drinks for ourselves...anything and the girl would come over and entertain for abit and leave. If we were to buy them a drink @ a flat rate of $20, they would entertain longer. Yeah so "Home Ground" was officially my very 1st experience. We went in ordered drinks and a girl came to each of us and began the introductions. My friends lied to the girls saying its my birthday just to score me preferential treatment...haha I would not say what I got on such a public area but I would say my friend got a better deal than me. Yeah and I was chided for not being overly adventurous...basket!! We stayed till closing time which ironically ended with the song by semisonic "Closing Time"...it was only 1am. Night was still young and we decided to head across to "Big Boss" haha such a funny name. Btw Dan the Man knows people here too and that it why we really get entertained the till closing time. "Big Boss" took the notch up many levels. I throughly enjoyed myself there and so did my companions. Haha they tried the same birthday trick there...damn its getting so lame but I am enjoying the attention. Stayed till closing time as well at 2am.

I've done things that I thought I'd never do with someone I just met but I guess all in the name of fun and for the experience I would say nice...very nice...hahaha!!!

Just got back my results on Friday! For those of you who knows me should know that this has been sitting at the back of my mind for a very long time. No I wasn't looking forward to getting it, infact I dreaded everyday and the feeling was exceptionally horrible during week leading up to the release date. Yes most of you should know its a very big deal for me and I appreciate all the support during the anxious moments. So a big thank you to everyone and i'm pround to announce that I have passed all my subjects to enable me to remain in NTU. Still got 1 more GE paper next Wednesday before I get to enjoy the remaining 3 weeks of my holiday. Starting attachment on the 9th of July...I think i'm repeating myself all over again.

For every good thing, I guess there is always going to be negative lurking around the corner. This is where the celebrations stop for this post. I'm dedicating this section to someone who I consider special and things hasn't really been smooth sailing for quite sometime between us. Joyce, i'm not going to beat around the bush, we are all adults and I believe on my part laying my cards open is the best way and I hope you can do the same. I believe it all started with me making the decision to take sometime away from you (twice). It was just a crazy time and I believe we talked about it before. Things back then were different. I admit the way I treat you now pales in comparison to the past. I hope you understand that I was "caught up" with the possibility that we might have actually got together and that I allowed myself to read to much into your kind intentions that you direct to your all your guy friends. I didn't realise back then but I get it now...we can only be friends and I guess you might be too used to the way I was in the past. Things are definately different now but I have to admit that the wat I am now...i'm trying very hard to be, and not let myself revert back to my old self...I believe we all know what might happen again. At times i'm not proud of my behaviour but that happens when you can't be yourself. Feelings will always be there and its up to us to keep it in check. Before typing this, I was contemplating whether or not to type this. It might just scare you away but up till this point I think that it is the right thing to do. The rest of them say I spoil you too much...giving in to your occasional whim and fancy and will always be on hand to apologise 1st. Sad to say I do agree with them but I think its time you learnt to be responsible to yourself and treat what your real friends tell you as constructive rather than demeaning. Up till this point if you're not thinking of defending yourself, I think it is a good start. People makes mistakes but admitting to it without hostile feelings is an art. I'm prepared for fingers to be pointed at me for being hyppocrtical by saying that but I will admit to that...its an art i'm trying to perfect as well. So what are we left now? Regarding what happened 2 days ago...I only remembered talking to you on the phone and the last exchange was you asking how was my grades and my reply was to tell you when we meet then I passed the phone to Shaun. What he said to you I had no idea as I was placing my order with the waitress...shortly recieved a typical pissed off sms from you which you did not reply. Sometimes I wonder how you want me to respond? The old me or the new me? I think we both know that you have a different set of expectations from me compared to the rest...anyway reached home read your blog msged you on msn only to have no reply until earlier when you congratulated me. I wonder why you would say such things in that blog post...I would never have said something like that to you. I can't help use the word victimise here. If you feel you are always to be blamed for something regardless of the situation then I think you are doing exactly that to yourself. So pardon me for getting pissed at you for getting pissed at me for something I did not do...yes the rest have commented a few times before that you tend to direct your unhappiness at me regardless of who is guilty.

I can only see 2 outcomes from this. Either I shall never hear from you again knowing that you are not the sort to initiate a mending or you can try to be honest and upfront with me with your feelings instead of lashing out so we can talk it out. I don't know if this works for you but the ball is in your court. I shall be waiting for your reply via any means, if not then at least let me tell you that I treasured every memory with you in it. Okay i'm no longer pissed!

Post number 56! This is a significant number because I have officially matched the number of post from my 1st blog which I have discontinued for some personal reasons. I got chided by scb for complaining too much in my previous post but I just want to say I don't mean it as a comparison or to provoke people who have obviously bigger things to worry about. Recieved semi good news that I have been assigned the company of my choice although not the interviewing one which is Barclays Capital (failed the online test miserably). What remains to be seen if I can go ahead with my IA. Results are expected to be out this Friday...1 more day...

Will be starting my IA from 9th July to 8th Dec (22 weeks). It will be the longest I have ever worked and I pray it will be a pleasant experience. Shan't say too much as it will still be dictated by Friday's results. So much to think about if it goes down south...dread thinking about what I have to do in that event.

Spent $40 on RO...yes I think its really crazy but I have been contemplating on it for awhile...yes I bought a donation item so shoot me...

Oh i'm going mad again!!!...Can't explain why been having mood swings over the past few days. Male menopause ah? Die liao la!

RO server rollback = Lost 4 levels + zeny + items = Bad
House possibly 99% sold = Might move to either Jurong West or Pasir Ris = Bad
Horrible PCshow = Smelly + cramped + nothing to buy = Bad
Not winning at Mahjong = poor + sad + angry + confuse + poorer = Bad
Sitting here typing blog = Remembering bad stuff over again = Bad
Exam results coming out = Anxiety = Bad
KL trip cancelled last minute = No holiday = Bad

Shaun regaining freedom = Less complains + See more of Shaun + Hear him complain = Duhring
Rong Mei's bday dinner = Gathering with friends + Steamboat + Cherry beer + Cake + Pics = Priceless...

I think I might hole up until everything turns better or worse i'll check myself into IMH.