

I'm utterly disgusted by myself for having put off updating this blog, therefore I feel compelled to finally break my self-loathe and post something!!! That being said, I have totally no idea where to start. Or an even more important question is should I be posting for the reading pleasure of you people or would this just be me hearing my own thoughts and feelings...I reckon I'll just go wherever my fingers take me and let you readers be the judge of it.
The 1st big thing is that I have finally graduated from NTU...3.5 years there is no JOKE and honestly I can't wait to get out of there and into a new chapter in life. Problem is...as most of you that know me, I've been occasionally riding my luck with regards to passing my exams. Mind you...I was never doing well to begin with, playing catchup since the 1st semester. The hardest thing is recovering from a bad start. Cutting the long story short, post exam jitters are getting to me and even more intense this time round as the pressure of graduating looms over me like flies to shit! Worse exam period ever! Losing sleep, nightmares, totally unmotivated to study and to top it all off, 3 out of 4 papers I sat for are potential death sentences condemning me to another 6 months of study...luckily I drank myself silly after my last paper and puked my guts out in the wee hours of this morning and I'm feeling much better :D
2nd big thing that stems from the above big thing...resuming NSF liabilities! I really want to resume and ORD asap...having this incomplete chapter in life is bugging the hell out of me, just like studying in NTU. I just want out of these commitments. Is it just me running away from commitments or the desire to begin something new? I really don't know at this moment in time. This is problematic, should I resume before getting my results (29th Dec) and learning that NTU has welcomed me back with open arms will be the shittiest thing ever! I will have to finish up army (5 months) before going back to NTU. This worse case scenario will prolong my need to be freed for another year. I will have to think on this...how to come out the winner of this compromise.
Honestly my mind is in a blank right now with sporadic memories from the last couple of months. I won't be thinking of anything from the past unless someone brings it up...probably a good thing from how this year has played itself out. So pardon the blackouts in continuity littered throughout the 100 posts! YEAH this is my century post. The BIG 100! FYI C.Ronaldo hammered in his 100th and 101st career goal last weekend helping MAN UTD to a 5-0 win over STOKE CITY.
Next up...FYP presentation on 1st Dec and then I will truly wash my hands of studying (GOD PLS HELP ME PULL THROUGH THIS ONE LAST TIME...AMEN)!
The 1st big thing is that I have finally graduated from NTU...3.5 years there is no JOKE and honestly I can't wait to get out of there and into a new chapter in life. Problem is...as most of you that know me, I've been occasionally riding my luck with regards to passing my exams. Mind you...I was never doing well to begin with, playing catchup since the 1st semester. The hardest thing is recovering from a bad start. Cutting the long story short, post exam jitters are getting to me and even more intense this time round as the pressure of graduating looms over me like flies to shit! Worse exam period ever! Losing sleep, nightmares, totally unmotivated to study and to top it all off, 3 out of 4 papers I sat for are potential death sentences condemning me to another 6 months of study...luckily I drank myself silly after my last paper and puked my guts out in the wee hours of this morning and I'm feeling much better :D
2nd big thing that stems from the above big thing...resuming NSF liabilities! I really want to resume and ORD asap...having this incomplete chapter in life is bugging the hell out of me, just like studying in NTU. I just want out of these commitments. Is it just me running away from commitments or the desire to begin something new? I really don't know at this moment in time. This is problematic, should I resume before getting my results (29th Dec) and learning that NTU has welcomed me back with open arms will be the shittiest thing ever! I will have to finish up army (5 months) before going back to NTU. This worse case scenario will prolong my need to be freed for another year. I will have to think on this...how to come out the winner of this compromise.
Honestly my mind is in a blank right now with sporadic memories from the last couple of months. I won't be thinking of anything from the past unless someone brings it up...probably a good thing from how this year has played itself out. So pardon the blackouts in continuity littered throughout the 100 posts! YEAH this is my century post. The BIG 100! FYI C.Ronaldo hammered in his 100th and 101st career goal last weekend helping MAN UTD to a 5-0 win over STOKE CITY.
Next up...FYP presentation on 1st Dec and then I will truly wash my hands of studying (GOD PLS HELP ME PULL THROUGH THIS ONE LAST TIME...AMEN)!